It was a nice suprise to wake up last day of 2009

and find id made the etsy storque

and that the treasury i made (get through)

made it to front page!

i always love putting them together

and most always i put a message inside

like tiny criptic ways

of putting thoughts in my head

out into the world

or in this case... etsy ;)

hehe

some of you know this

ive seen you comment on them

or message me in such a way

its nice

and this year i am greatful for etsy

seems silly to be thankful for an online site

but it has brought me to know people i like

and to be able to give to others

in a way

pieces of me :)

....

i am greatful for so much this past year

my children and family

for love

for grace and compassionate people

i am thankful for patience

and wish i had more ;)

just so much really..

this past year i was able to travel a bit

and im SO greatful for that

so many adventures

i cant wait to see what is brought my way

in this new year!!

so Christmas this year was nice..

my oldest two came in about 7 am

to inform me that our presents had arrived

and stockings filled!

i stumbled out of bed and we all came out to the living room

giggles of excitement followed

as they eyed all the goods once again

we opened stockings

baby was not so amused with unwrapping gifts

even the shiny bows didnt seem to amuse her

instead she sat on her presents and watched us

haha

Then it was time for the gifts under the tree!

there wasnt tons

but i was very happy this year that my oldest two

were able to pick out gifts themselves for everyone in the family

i want them to see the enjoyment of giving to others

and they did!!

they were so excited to have us open the handmade bits

and things they picked out from the store!

we oohed and ahhhhed at all the goodness :)

christmas eve

we pile the kids up and go to my fathers house for the day

everyone was excited to see one another

my little bros and sisters

all waiting to play with our children

My oldest brother is a bit too old to play

so he hangs out with us!!

good times

we shoot some pool

play some xbox

joke around and snack

then my uncle and cousin show up right before dinner!

this year instead of regular dining table

my dad had bought 3 tables and set up the dining room

to look like a lovely restaurant

my sisters had set up a menu

and we sat down to these lovely tables

while they took our order

soup , salad, bread

then a main coarse of lasagna

and or mostaccioli

they also were our servers!!

yay for good service ;)

after we finished there was a bunch of

desert to choose from

of coarse we wanted to try a few ;)

hehe

after dinner we opened gifts

and got to talk a bit to my cousin and his new girlfriend

she was back from spain

and had some lovely stories to tell

it was sweet to watch them so in love

all huggy and kissy

We had lots of fun

then packed the kids up and headed for home!

its been snowing all day...

the light coming in from outside is beautiful and im craving hot chocolate.

I love days like this....
days you want to spend getting snowed in and cuddling with the one you love.

This time of year makes me want to tell everyone i love

just how much

To me its the warmest time of year

makes my insides even more mush than normal

Im excited for Christmas day to come too

i will get to enjoy the children opening up their gifts

i will make a yummy meal

consisting of turkey and mashed potatoes and whatnot

mmmmmmmmmm

makes me hungry just thinking about it

we will have my mother over.

my sister will come with her boyfriend

we will play games

and laugh

and eat way too much

broke

mommy broke her heart today

she said the holder walked away

and all the pieces on the floor

she doesnt want them any more

we handed her a sewing needle

we handed her some thread

we hope that she can mend it

while crying in her bed

she says her body hurts

her tummy full of pain

her eyes so full of sadness

she says she cant explain

she goes about our day

all drained of any cares

then she sits there lifeless

mumbling her prayers

she smiles with her mouth

but her eyes are full of tears

she says shes never known this love

through out all of her years

she says its all her fault

but we dont understand

she says its all her fault

.....

apologie

apologies they must be said

i wasnt thinking clearly

and due to insecurities

ive hurt someone i hold dearly

and all the sorrys in the world

can not take back my wrong

but i will do whatever it takes

to prove my love is strong

MooSHooPork

come on in and get your last minute holiday gifts!
great stocking stuffers and ornaments!

Little Papoose