lazy sunday

we lie there

doing nothing and everything

i sit there

feeling the comfort and the safety and the peace

that is in your presence

near me

i wished i could have held on

i wished i could have taken hold

and not let go

i wish the sunday

that sunday

would have drawn on

like endless ocean waves

moving forward yet never ending

i cant describe the feeling

the pure contentment

just happy

id say

happy in you being near

you being here

you being there with me

happy in the warmth of you

and your touch

your big strong hands

soft brushes

your eyelashes

your eyes

so friendly

so much inside

to share with me

your skin was like warm desert sand

smooth to the touch

glowing

your nose and cheeks

so lovely sat waiting for my soft lips kisses

your smile

so contagious

brought pinkness to my face and

with it a smile as well

i miss the mundaneness of it all

the pure satisfaction of it all

i miss the way you would linger

with your fingers

your hands

your gaze

i miss the way

you wanted me to hurry up when i had to leave the room

so that we could be near eachother again

i miss the way if i were gone to long yould follow me

again lingering

around

near

like suprising me in the drug store with your presence

when i was alone

and turned to see you

the smile inside me went from ear to ear

the one outside as well

thank you

but the day past

the week

the time

my hands couldnt hold on as long as i had wished

and those strong hands of yours

well

you lost your grip

why is it we had to give in

to the world

to the thoughts and ideals of those who dont know us

and by us i mean

you and me

together

with such strong passion and emotions

us together

like magnets

why must we lose the opportunities we could have

because of the what others think

why must it matter

when i all i know is

no matter the cost

the journey with you

by your side would be worth it

i remember that sunday

as i lie there

thinking

hold on to this

dont let go

keep it forever etched in your memory

the smell

the feel

that sunday

blue soft sheets

rain outside the window

and peace within me