um...

theres nothing i can say today
nothing about this day today
just blah and *sigh* and go away
theres nothing more that i can say

still in motion..

theres more here then i can see

what and where

and lucky me

and why oh why

who knows 

dont ask

just be glad

smile

bask

in all the things you were given

all the things that now are

and be thankful for new

and for healing scars

and be hopeful for future

when no one else will

and be strong for you all

when your moving up hill

traveler...

standing on the roadside

walking dont know where

taking tiny baby steps

cant see past the glare

but then i hear a car pass

and another and one more

and then i hear one stop

and open up its door

and there i stand

in confusion

why did you stop here

dont you see my baggage

dont you even care

i feel the warmth and welcome

the urge to get inside

but who is this im going with

on this adventurous ride

tightrope

i fell through my safety net

there was a big tear

i broke just  a bit

it doesnt seem fair

and i bled out emotions

all over the floor

and i keep slipping up on them

as i head for the door

but ill climb back up 

with a new net in place

just a bit gun shy

scared to fall on my face

and ill walk oh so carefully

as i try to heal

and pray that this new net

is as strong as it feels

a little bit broken

a little bit broken

but give me some time

ill get me some glue

and hope to be fine

impatient

i can feel it sneaking in

the panic

the what if

....

what if

and what am i to do 

or say

i must trust

that it will be ok

but then again i feel it here

inside my head

a little fear

and its building up as time goes on

that i cannot reflect upon

or see the path in front of me

for im on pause

momentarily

for im a mover

a doer

progress-er

if things dont go right

there bound to get better

as long as my feet keep

moving ahead

but waiting right here

is what i dread 

understand

if you cant feel the beat

and you cant feel its heat

or see its affect on me

....

if you dont like the breeze

and wind through those trees

that we pass on our travels to nowhere

....
id just like you to appreciate
that these things are in me
and need be done..

if you dont understand 

and you dont care to learn

..

then ill be silenced 

without sound

and choke with no air

and ill whither away